All the others are together, only I remain.
Then I see you- and everything changes.
I’m bound to you by despair and hope,
I’m caged by magic, Fate’s cruel joke:
I can see but never touch.
Others discover my hidden truth,
Shake their heads with pity, their eyes mocking my attempts.
Why can’t they see that I’ve no choice-
To break my heart trying is easier than to do nothing.
My life is not mine to control:
Destiny is the captain of my ship,
The course was set when first I saw you.
His orders are clear to all-
Harsh, unjust, non-negotiable-
I can see but never touch.
The Sea shifts, Fate’s lover is near.
She softens, hope arises, this could be the day,
She caresses Destiny; he too is turning a blind eye,
Time torpedoes me to you, heart beating,
so close, I can feel your breath…..
Bang!
Wickedly the lovers laugh.
Arms embraced, as one, they mercilessly taunt me
Always will I be their hostage, they snigger
Gleefully reinstating my boundaries:
My life is not mine to control.
You wander past, barely a glance at my broken heart
Slowly I am giving up the fight.
Why fight when there is no chance of hope?
Puppet, that’s my name in the show presented by Destiny and Fate.
Come one and all to this circus that is me.
© Heather R Ellis
January 2009